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SaffireStarblade
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Name: Tiffany (Bob ^^)
Birthday: 7/22/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: ~reading ~looking at the sky ~dragonboating ~video games ~Magic ~doing useless/pointless projects
Expertise: I'm not too good at anything, except ranting, probably. Perhaps trying my hand at various video games and doing alternately well/sucking at them. And trying to read faster than other people!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Cognitive Science
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AIM:  SaffireStarblade
Member Since:
3/17/2003
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| I'm feeling more independent lately. Or rather, my mom was commenting on how I do a lot of things that I don't necessarily have to take responsibility for. I'm lacking some examples but basically she mentioned that there are certain things that I should let Sheldon do that I don't have to do. :) While I agree, at the same time, I figure that I *should* be independent, and learn how to do things on my own, if only because I recognize that this is the most independence I ever really get.
When it comes to relationship-y things, I am completely dependent on others. If I am not currently in a relationship that has lots of affection and friendship, then I feel very much at a loss, and seek to change that status. Hence the terming of myself as being a "serial dater", just moving from one to the next. So, maybe I should try and equalize these two halves a bit more, eh?
Just a thought that occurred to me whilst I was trying to finish the first half of my midterm paper. ;_;
Also, I really really want to try and do Nanowrimo again this year. We'll see how it goes, considering this is likely my busiest quarter ever at SD. Sigh.
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| ...told in very quick bites, as always. Let's see.
About August 13 I left San Diego to drive home, and it was a wonderfully warm welcome from my family and especially my brother, home from Chicago :) Soon after we embarked on our trip to San Francisco, where we stayed for about 5 days, and then drove back. That was probably the longest I've ever driven without stopping--4 hours--before Ed took over the last leg of the trip for 3.
My mother's Chinese Knowledge team took 5th place and after the competition we readied ourselves for some sightseeing. We went to Lombard St., Ghirardelli Square, Fisherman's Wharf (and Pier 39), the Golden Gate Bridge (and walked to it's first post...thing... support), and UC Hastings (which I didn't know existed and was a UC until I was informed). I hurt my legs walking up and down the hills, and for the next 4 days in SF I hobbled around slowly and my mom kindly walked with me just as slowly. It was nice except for the big fight I had with my mom (in which you can never win, and she only makes it worse by dragging in extraneous things the way moms, and women, do).
We returned home for about 2-3 days, and our days were full of cleaning the house and our nights full of playing Starcraft with my cousins and mahjong and board games. Thus we whiled our time away until we left for Las Vegas--again, my driving the first half, and my brother, the latter, with us swapping on our return trip. The first thing I played was with my family with some free credits the casino (The Orleans) had given us since we signed up for their club card. It was a nickel slot, and "technically" I made about $1.75. Yay! My aunts and uncle and cousin Guenter and Ed also made about the same, though I think Guenter took the prize with $2.50.
Then I played some penny slots, and Ed wanted me to get a feel for all the games available. I played Let It Ride as my first table game, netting $2 overall, and the next day we tried roulette (which is silly, and loses money much too easily). We ate at The Fitzgerald, as they had an excellent deal on their pasta-and-salad buffet, and it was there that we found a table that had Blackjack Switch. It immediately became our favorite table game (Ed, Guenter, and I) and each of us ended up winning about $20. Unfortunately, we had to return to Excalibur, where we were staying, and they did not have Blackjack Switch :(
We also watched Mystere, which was my first Cirque du Soleil show. I didn't ... QUITE ... understand all of the symbolism and such (thank the gods for Wikipedia, which helped me pin down some characters) but , it was amazing...! Makes me want to see their other shows... :)
That night we decided to go to the midway with the younger cousins as it is our wont to do every year we go to Vegas, and Ed, Celina, Wes, Celina's mom, and I had an excellent time with the midway games, even fetching some of the larger prizes. :) Some DDR was played, some skeeball, and of course some air hockey. The next day we had to go, but not before Guenter and I played some regular old Blackjack, with Guenter winning $25 and I making about $10. All in all... Vegas trip was definitely a success! :)
And now I'm back in San Diego, back to the ol' grind, and thinking about the myriad things to do for grad school... /sigh.
Moon phase: waxing gibbous
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| I've been staying up late for simply no other reason than that I have returned to my habit of consuming excellent literature in long sessions.
And I stay up all night, 'til I can see the skies lightening, lost in a world of quiet and darkness where others traverse the sleeping-realms, for as long as that time lingers... And it is during this time that I convince myself that my life, though one of so many others, is one that is somehow charmed, or special. And in those hours of stillness, I truly believe such thoughts.
It isn't a very good excuse for staying up until 6 or even 8am. But it's some semblance of a reason.
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| So. It's 5:30am, and I have been awake most of the night. I had work earlier at 7pm, and after my shift I went to visit Gloria but we stayed up til 5 until I wrenched myself away from talking/watching YouTube videos and now I'm at home, determined to just stay up until tomorrow night.
I don't know but something is on my mind and is severely limiting my ability to, well, be happy. Or content. Some semblance of positivity. And it's easy to chalk it up to missing Sheldon since of course it's been awhile since our last long-distance thing, but I get the feeling that's only part of it; like there's some that is even beyond that, which I can't even put my finger on.
So, maybe it's the ol' hormones acting up (I'm long overdue for that familiar "dip into depression" bit I get) or ... stress? Yeah, the former is probably the best answer. I'm worried about things, but they aren't new things; just the same, need-to-exercise, gotta-go-to-the-zoo, go-to-work, make-food-eat-it, sleeeep (which of course I am failing at), be-productive! Some of it is happening, but not enough of them. So I suppose it's time to really get going, since after AX and these last few days of being back in SD I've really just pissed my time away.
AX was fun enough; some people took my picture and knew who I was so yay! I unfortunately didn't take pictures of the cosplay so I will just have to put it on again and then upload my pictures (which are of a woefully small number). Though during the con it was extremely tiring, in retrospect we all enjoyed ourselves (overall). We stayed at Gloria's friend's guest house with a few other friends for cheap, and supplemented food with Asian snackies and instant udon (fantastic, btw). Sleeping on the wood floor sucked but 2 nights wasn't going to kill us. I purchased a Chobits plushie for my manager and spent most of my money on parking and gas. Yay. >.>
Anyways. It's been really freaking mediocre around here and I'm feeling really sedentary so I suppose I'll start exercising again. I might pick up a second job--with Sony--so we shall see where my time goes if I get hired.
Let me know if you've any thoughts as to what might be causing this huge cloud of "meh" and "sigh" and "..." because maybe then I can do something about it instead of staying up all night and feeling even worse than before.
Moon phase: full moon
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| Cripes, it's been over a month... well, not like life is that interesting, anyways (in comparison to others'?). Current events...
-Spring quarter ended! I got pretty good grades... though I was only taking 2 courses for letter anyways. Regardless, I'm pleased. :)
-I went home after school was over for about a week, cramming in as many visits with friends as possible (and was vaguely successful). Then it was back to SD, and workworkwork.
-Cosplay: it's been tough. And somewhat expensive, try as I might to cut corners and such. So far, the prices have been about as follows: $5 craft supplies, $13 black shorts, $12 white belt, $12 black string bikini top, $11 blue hair mascara (which doesn't seem to be working, unfortunately), $40 black boots, and the biggest one... about $97 for a black raincoat. Which I absolutely fucking adore, by the way. It's basically the coat I've always wanted: black, water repellant, and reaches my ankles. <3!! Hopefully, the whole thing ends up looking decent enough that people will know wtf I'm cosplaying.
-Work has been pretty tiring and consuming. My manager's got me doing 8+ hour shifts more often than not, and I guess I'm not used to it because it is KILLING me with exhaustion. We've had approximately 5 people quit/transfer/LEAVE, so it's up to the "veterans" to train newbies and soldier on.
-Sheldon is in SD for awhile, at least until he gets his lease and apartment things sorted out. But for now, I'm just happy he's around to help me work on the cannon and hang around with :)
Anyways. It's 4 in the gorramn morning. Bye for now.
Moon phase: waxing crescent
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